Everlong Ecstacy

Sparkles in the darkness,

Flashing lights and sailing
Colours along the rooftops.
Falling from the heights and
Reaching the bottom: head first.
Losing the will and casting our
Arms out to the world. Drinking
Down endless glasses and throwing
back our heads in abandon. Dancing
Along the streets and carrying our heavy
bodies back to bed, all alone again.

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I try really hard, and give it my all,
I care too much but that’s not it all.
I smile like I’m fine and talk it all out;
No one would notice I’ve ever had a doubt.
I walk and stroll with a song in my heart
Whilst prattling away but, truthfully, falling apart.
The words are running circles around me
And slowly but surely I’m going crazy.
You plague me with emotions and thoughts
I shouldn’t feel. My heart is swelling, shots
Of painful Happiness jolt through my body.
The beatings and bleedings of my faulty
Heart resounds. Can you hear it? It stops me
In my tracks and I tremble that you might see
The heart that beats within me. I worry
You’ll turn away, run away and never say sorry.
I try really hard, and I keep my little smile,
But I can only go for so long, it’s been a while
Since someone looked and truly saw me,
And it terrifies me, I have never felt so free.