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I try really hard, and give it my all,
I care too much but that’s not it all.
I smile like I’m fine and talk it all out;
No one would notice I’ve ever had a doubt.
I walk and stroll with a song in my heart
Whilst prattling away but, truthfully, falling apart.
The words are running circles around me
And slowly but surely I’m going crazy.
You plague me with emotions and thoughts
I shouldn’t feel. My heart is swelling, shots
Of painful Happiness jolt through my body.
The beatings and bleedings of my faulty
Heart resounds. Can you hear it? It stops me
In my tracks and I tremble that you might see
The heart that beats within me. I worry
You’ll turn away, run away and never say sorry.
I try really hard, and I keep my little smile,
But I can only go for so long, it’s been a while
Since someone looked and truly saw me,
And it terrifies me, I have never felt so free.